Benefit update

Ok, well only a few days left...So exciting...We have a lot of things for the auction...not big stuff but alot still...we have bbq pork, buns, pop, baked beans mac n cheese and potato salad...what a stresser! I have alot alot alot of running to do!

Hope for a good turn out, things will be for the positive...

Gage is doing well, a-little flaired but better. Paige is eating me out of house and home, growing like a weed! SO adorable. I love my babies.

We had an awesome first swimming pool trip.

Hope to see you friday.
Courtney, Gage and Paige

Whats new #2

Well this has been a bad week, Gage is having problems bad with allergy and skin, and I am no longer able to feed my daughter (her father wont let me during her visitation and I don't get anything when I pump). Paige is beautiful, i am worried about her nursing but other than that she's doing awesome...Happy baby. I am on a waiting period with unemployment (that I didn't know exsisted) and so now...my phone will be shut off and maybe my utilities...and just when I thought I would be able to start to afford a car. Gage's dance recital is this weekend...he's doing so awesome and while he loves it I am so glad its about over...it wiped out my small savings account. I am glad that he had the opportunity tho.
Ive been pulling my hair out working on the benefit...mainly because he's bad enough that he has to go back and while people have asked many times why we are going back and forth to mayo when we are trying to save for colorado...its mainly because we all suffer when he isnt ok but mainly him...he needs the current treatment. We desperately need donations for the auction...if you know anyone that can help...please send them my way! its the two week countdown...im worried and praying.

In the mean time, I have marked things for a garage sale, called another photographer to try to sell some of my equipment, been making bows for crafts shows. and praying for miracles.

Going Home.

Well we are sitting here with a little boy that is CRYING...sad because he wants to leave the hospital...but doesn't get to do the things that he looked so forward to...I promised him last week that he would be able to see grampa and go to the aquarium...but now...since its thursday we don't get to because Brandon is not accepting of our family life and I signed a terrible agreement with him that hurts my kids, basically gives us no family time...and yes its my fault I trusted him I believed him when he said sign the agreement I love you we arent going to be apart...but then it was only a matter of days before he left and tore my kids apart. I care very much about this family, and my kids are the ones that are suffering. Paige needs to be with her mother and father...but instead she'd torn between and torn away from Gage.
I am just angry...i want gage healed always, but thats a prayer that has to be prayed forever...and i am mad that my kids dont get to have a normal life because we are interupted and have no time together...Yes I am the bad person for wanting better for them. I am hoping that Brandon is happy with what he's done to my son and daughter...but especially to my son...i hope that someday he relizes the pain he has inflicted on him, the way he let him down, and I really pray that someday someone pays him back for being so incensitive and hurtful. I also pray all the time that Paige doesn't feel like I know she will, the same way I felt when my dad left and tore our family apart.

As for my son and daughter, we will contintue to try to have normal life, keep gage healed, and hopefully move on with our lives as fast as possible...WE DESERVE so much better.

I am hoping that on the way home we will be able to get to see Aunt amy on the way home since Gage doesn't get to see Grampa or the aquarium.

May is the start of a new month and though we have had a TERRIBLE weekend...baby daddy stuff, sadness, and a broken tv that I still have 10 payments left on...oh ya and a broken wii remote....I am PRAYING for a better week. Gage has some odd looking spots on him, so I am sure he is infected. I just can't wait to hear the doctors...he is looking forward to playing with Mike the nurse helper...so I am praying he still works there! lol. I am going to CLEAN like a crazy person today...and go get my oil changed... and have my car checked out. I need to be ready because since Paige has to be at her dad's house until 9 pm we are leaving and driving as far as we can...then sleeping hopefully in waterloo and driving the rest of the way...if I would have had my way we'd be leaving now and be safe...but it isn't worth fighting with Brandon...I cant take him yelling at me anymore. I was amazed today...he constantly rode Gage's butt and made him feel like a terrible unwanted kid...but the neighbor boy that has ADD is his buddy and stayed at his house last night....what really pissed me off is Mason who by the way isn't related to my daughter is allowed to talk to her get in her face and what ever...but when Brandon was here...if Gage tried to play with Paige or anything Brandon would yell at him DONT TOUCH HER...you dont need to be in her face... UNREAL. I don't get him...but I am sorry Gage is has a hell of a lot more right to play with his sister than some neighbor kid.

So I am definetly ready to take the kids, get gage healed, go see the fishies, and my step mom...I would say my dad but I am really angry with him so I don't care if I see him at all. When I get home...it is prepare for GARAGE SALE time! lol I am going to downsize, and hopefully get a chunk of money to put away for a new car...and if I am really really lucky maybe just maybe I will get the second job I interviewed for this week...I have to get more money coming in somehow.

In the mean time... I am thanking CASSIE and COLEEN and my real friends for pushing this benefit for Gage...I am praying for good turnout. We have a few auction items...it's going to be small people have been hit up too much lately...but hopefully it's going to be helpfull...
I have a goal of 15,000 between the benefit, garage sales, and work...we will probably have to push back our trip to denver to have more time to save but we are officially 0.003469 % towards our goal! LOL

HOPE ALL IS WELL!
Courtney, Gage, and Baby Paige